2015!!

This is the last piece of writing I wrote in 2015, please read it with an open mind.

I’m not sure if I am blessed or cursed but this year brought about 50 shades of everything.

January came as usual, always gloomy,

 More so because I had to go to varsity

Start a life and learn to survive in the city

Make some friends but never to forget homes teachings.

I had subliminal echoes to be satisfied with what I got from my parents

And never to forget to fight for the education that was to curb my struggles

February had its usual flare of love

I bought a rose for a girl I was hoping to make my valentine

But the day came and I had no one to call mine

The rose died but since I had no attachments I was fine

This was also my birth month but on that day I am never happy

I thought of the life I could have if my father had still been,

So for that day I remained indoors and unseen.

March was a month in which I was acclimatizing to my setting

Getting to meet people and finding my bearing.

Law school was in full swing and the assignments were headaches

But I never gave in for I had to attain my personal goals and objectives

Oh I also met a girl on one of the social networks

Facebook it was, and upon physical sight she made my world spin.

April’s first I was no one’s fool,

Though I saw pranks, some funny, some silly others plain cruel

I laughed at some, yes those that were cool

The girl I met by this time we were talking,

Staying up late till early in the morning

We vibed on the same frequency,

We had a connection

And as the month went by

For her I grew affection.

May approached and it was time to go home

I missed the salty smell of the air that was always there

The cold that would had me wishing I had the company of the girl I met in March

The very one I came to think stole my heart

How not if she was flawlessly made and also smart

Could I hope for us ever in mind to part

June and July were the months that broke my heart

Because as the days came faster

Her and I we became distant

We grew further apart

Her into her problems

And I into trying to perfect myself for her happiness which she had no clear definition of.

August saw me becoming more social

Forgetting my heartache, believing it to be trivial

I became outgoing, surfing the chill spots

Looking for all the girls I deemed to be hot

Drowning my pain in random kisses and interactions

This was a month were pain and hate justified my actions

September saw me meet lady number two

A matriculant with a mind of the first one too

A listener, with a painstaking body

Inquisitive, sassy but also a lady

It saw me go home a change man this time

New demeanor, new mindset and vibe

Devils urine had consumed me

Or at least that is what seemed the status quo to be

October showed that I was not failing

Neither to my potential was I excelling

The money finished faster as the budget was wider

Food, transport. Rent and girls ciders

I became a fuckboy

I sold dreams, but I was always nice or to me it seemed

The girls like me and my take was always mutual

As long as she was good looking and smart

I had no intention stopping that which was to start

November jumped on to me in disguise of a surprise

Dragging along the dread of finals.

I had to study, reserved all the time for myself

I did my part and studied the years’ work

Did as controversially as I had to relocate

Moved in with a cousin, death to my life or so I thought.

Completed my exams and stayed for work

You see February saw me becoming a radio personality

That’s when I realized for the door to my success only I had the key.

I felt pride because as time passed this statement became fact

The month ended and I finally had to go Home.

The coast welcomed me for the Friday of months

December was lit, and all songs being played in Walvis bays streets were hits

The vibe was welcoming the people were familiar

I was glad I was finally here.

For half a week I travelled and the north saw me

Shortly for a wedding and because the drinks there were free

Hit a U-turn for coasting and continued thriving

Relations at home lost point and communication went dark

There was no light of peace, not even a spark

In the last days, I quit drinking

Wrote myself an ode for temptation reference and to it I will keep returning

If my desire for alcohol continues burning

The year was stolen from us in memories that are cherished

By a thief that made sure it seemed brief

Who we met that is special may we keep and when tomorrow comes

May 2016 bring more of those that will assure we will have no nightmares in our sleep

Goodbye 2015

Welcome 2015 part 2

The Truth In Typed Cursive.!

Dear, Friend, Foe, Ally and Lover of Reading

For the love of the super power that rules the heavens i am appealing for you to be considerate please. be a better you this year, yes it's this BS again, but bear in mind that this is important.

Some of you lead on people while perfectly knowing that you will end up breaking the persons heart after awhile, but you also know that you could have prevented that. Imagine a person you like letting you fall for them just to tell you " nah fam you have got zero chance". Be a person and not some heartless monster, also do not allow your time to be wasted be it dramatic, tell the person how you feel about being a bitch on demand and move on

Times change ey, do not be ruled by looks this is one thing most young girls still fail to understand, he is only handsome that far, and what about ambitions, goals a future, a will to succeed. Does he have that?, if you allow yourself to fall in a trap laid by someone that has no vision both of you will one day find yourselves on a crash and burn mission in the far future. yes you choose who you love but things are changing now, invest in someone that you know will be there for you in every way, maybe not now, but one day, believe.

People that have situations with their ex's, set the record straight, it might be ya'll are just talking but there is always one who eventually always wants the other back again. Don't put a person through that same pain that came from the separation no more, tell them the 411 and move on, if there is hope, let it be known, if there is none, still likewise. You might be meant for one another if you have been through a lot together and believe me you starting over with someone new is not easy, having to retell secrets, make new memories, create new special words, just start that road from the starting line once more, it is just not the same and it takes time and effort plus with every little heartbreak the ability to love fully is diminished a little more. So define your boundaries with your people if it can happen give one another that little hope that someday maybe BUT if you are done then so be it again.

Choose what you know is best for you. If it means leaving some people in the previous year do it. Do not have unnecessary contacts in your phone book if they are just there to add to the numbers, if someone does not vibrate on the same frequency as you, make peace with that and move on, you were not created to live in every individual you see or knows life. God created people for you just like he created your special person, do not force situations, let go and be emancipated from the worry of "but why does she/he or they not like me, understand that you cannot be everybody's favourite you are your own person,concentrate on making yourself an amplified upgraded version, eg if you were David last year this your make yourself DavidS like the iphone. Walk with people that know that you on about an make sure you achieve ad hoc.

That bad habit, be it smoking drinking, too much sex, disobedience,pride or whatever it is. Make changes with who you are and let go of what you subliminally know does not build you. Grow from your despair and thrive to slay. Leave behind what you know holds you back, that which stains your reputation, makes you a blacksheep. If it can be changed by you, alter it and modify yourself to be a person you can look up to, be your own icon, craft your own role model in your image, Very few situation give you happiness like the joy to be derived from achieving what other people say you can't or will never do. And ey if 3 beers get you drunk drink 2, if going out every weekend makes you broke real fast, go out once or twice a month. With the correct willpower those unwanted bad habits or guilty pleasures can become history, the change starts with you.

Yes it was long but congratulations if you reached this point, i cannot make you do as above mentioned but I hope what sunk in sunk deep. Try to live according to what you deem is righteous and good, you can have fun but do not lose yourself in the process, never forget who you are, where you come from and where you hope one day to be.