After a year....

You came as smooth as lies from licked lips
You swayed your way into my eyes with those hips..
I read your mind through those updates you posted
And I hoped to get to know you beyond 
these boundaries created.
Eventually I  approached you and damn I was baffled.
I met your mind with these eyes., saw your beauty and  
Through those networks I approached Your physique and mind I came to see.

I envisioned a future for you and me
I hope for only the best that we should be.
For little but precious time I got you attention.
I spoke to your soul I touched your spirit and captivated your mind.
We had conversations that time lost.
Little memories that filled big gaps and created paradise.
But long before I could realise
That in my falling I was losing you...

This heart was deeply entrenched in the idea of a love was true.
It was felt with the rays of the burning sun... with the taste a morning rise and that lethargy under the stars before the escapade to dreamy lands.

Because of that I didn't come across rectifying my mistakes.
You  identified them because you knew what was at stake.
A heart pure for God's liking... and righteous for the devils will to attempt  a taking.
I failed to fix my pride.
I still wasn't considerate..
Maybe a portion of my heart still held hate.

Like broken guitar strings.
Like war in war torn countries.
Your heart failed to commit.
You failed to buy the dream for a reality of a man that was broken before your entrance.
You didn't heal this fractured heart...
You that smells of angels, walks like gold and speaks with the accent of diamonds. .
With all that purity...
All that power to change...
You just gave up...

You locked your heart like the first time I met you.
Sealed the depths of your mind so I could not go through
And as paradise came in the blink of an eye.
You made your exit.
With wounded emotions torn in conflicts of staying or leaving...
But eventually taking the walk that increased the proximity between you and me.

I was left here with the invisible touch of memories made.
I could smell the scent of past beautiful moments created.
But that was now only a room in a castle empty for its queen has left.
The only woman that ever had hold of this mature heart.
You left with the morning breeze and absconded with shooting starts...
You Chose a Scarless path and
Lived up to the oath in those bars...

But until today
This man still loves you.
He acknowledges mistakes,  he accepts fault.
And as you tell him you can't change him
He recites in his mind that real love can change for sustenance.
You discard the old and start clothed in a demeanour of novel decent.
You choose to have hope in the future and discard all negativity from the recent.
Work to create the perfect relation because easy comes as does it go.
That is why struggles should make or define situations and not end them.

I told you I was a burning fire and you still came at personal risk is what you think..
You're worth it and deserving is what I think.
Inspite of all your heeding and warning to stay at arms length, I just couldn't.

Even long after I told you I was done with you.
Not a day went by in which I did not think of you.
Not a day went by in which nothing more than you're presence could please me
I longed for days in which I made you laugh.
Days in which I didn't have to be careful with what to say in fear of your wraths retribution.
Days where the existence of us was in its livings prime...

Oh Well!

Someday I hope I can fill your perfection cup.
I pray time turns you my way again.
I wish I had one more try at chance.
I plead that we will one day advance.

But for now...
As requested.

I shall live in hope of finding your  apparent suggestion of a compatible suitor.
Once more I'll try to live without your presence and hope only to eventually embrace your absence.
May I not become a let's just become friends that isn't your friend anymore.
May time grant me acceptance and that eventual new guys tolerance...

Thank you