In a little perspective.

One day left, one day left for a very informative and life lesson filled year.😃

I wish i could get to line up every individual i met this year and shake their hand and give them a hug or something and just say, thank you for being a part of my 2016 ey🙂😎.

I've made some pretty strong and good friendships and associations that only continue to build me in some way or another, people that don't forget to remind me of how I started and people that also tell me to keep chasing the dreams I have, never to give up and always to keep a straight head, i can't mention names here but the feeling will hit you when you read this, you will know if it's you.🙌🙏

2016

I lost the love of my life this year man, i lost my biggest inspiration, I lost my Mom too man, my Queen.I felt I lost my life, the ones that f\have lost a mother will know how deep that pain is man. But yeah, God will never give you a struggle too hard for you to overcome, he knows your strength and with that in mind, know that it will never be the same but it will be okay someday

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I've had so many adventures in the course of Radio presenting, Mc'ing (Tah! big ups to all the people that always turned up the vibes with me), Debating ;as a student as a free mind, as a young person this year. I still din't find that girl, guess that's a work in progress ey, been single a couple of years and still am, you know how things happen and they don';t happen, kinda where this love life thing has taken it's course with me. It falls as well as it grows yo. but i appreciate and will forever those people that i kinda had or have a little deeper than average bond this year, had some pretty lit sessions yo, inserts chuckle.👦😅😜

And to every one I met only once or something✌🏽, I might not remember you, like when we meet again like some people I've been meeting this December but ey my love goes out to you and it's probably just coz we dint still on a deep or proper fam, that aint nothing big to get on about yo👍🏽.

2k16 Law school, that was some other tip legit, but we pulled through that fight clean, 2 more years to go and then it's a happy dance. Endeavor to make yourself an educated individual if you are lucky enough to have the opportunity ey. Good things come from being an academic;a scholar and your credibility still grows, do what you like and how you like it, don't make it bad competition though👐🏽, before it is anything else it is your own journey so no need to feel you have to compare yourself to anyone else, this year I learned to "love yours". Things hopefully will become better, just persist in your hustles.👌🏽

As for the social networking world, thanks, I've come to meet several interesting minds here, woke people with a consciousness that is too lit, thanks for being the therapist😆😂 that i can't afford and the light to some of the ways, these socials play a very important role in creating your own personality and moral and social compass, you learn wa\hat to abstain and indulge in😏

peaking🙂 of indulgence 2016 for me was a year of 0% alcohol consumption, got rid of it so if you ever saw me lit, that way probably Mary. but yeah fall in and we fall out of things, we do as we shall for we know ourselves

thank you, and thank you for staying around for my own very poor version of a bible,

May next year be as it will. we wait and see what it has in store for us and speak little of it.

Adios and happy New years in advance to you if i don't see you tomorrow.

Who do you thank?

IF I HAVE NOT BEEN EVER BEEN THANKFUL, THEN I WOULD BE AS INCONSIDERATE AND AS SELFISH AS THE WORST COME..
2016 for me has been one hell of a ride, if we knew the extent of times and place with deep pain and hurt, this would surely have sufficed as time in hell hey.
As bad as it was though, I had my good times, My moments in happiness and a sense of growth unto me.
My passions grew, we left no interesting stone in our path unturned viable to our circumstances.
I achieved and learned from most if not all experiences.
I explored sides to me and as I met more people, I got to see diverse personalities to individuals and that honed my interpersonal skills on a hundred.
I gained experience, good and bad, but since it's the good we are remenisicng on I would like to acknowledge, everyone that has been there for me.
Always ever standing by me no matter what.
My family, the people that raised me, the ones that never threw me away like so many children in the world out there every day, the ones that made sure I stayed healthy, I stayed productive and gave me the platter on which I built my moral compass.  My friends, the ones that remain untouched by external influences and never forget to help me and my path, people loyal to dust and never in expectancy of nothing more than the average mind know they deserve in proportion of effort as well.  My Business associates that have become more like family as we have a strong understanding of what we have envisioned for tomorrow,   the dreams spoken and plans made that root us to deeper paradigms, My fans, I don't particularly like this term as it sets one on a high horse and gives you a whip of so much obligation and responsibility alas, to the people that always follow my stories, always support my shows, read my writings from everywhere in the world, I've seen views from Holland, South Africa, Kenya, Ghana, Nigeria, France, UK, USA, and Russia to mention a few but in over 15 countries for me is a hella achievement and I am happy my work reaches a greater audience. To the ones that always remind me of how beautiful what we put in black and white can be thank you for understanding that beauty is a spectrum and we choose our own color in the rainbow. To the ones that follow me on radio, the ones that always wake up early with me for my show every morning from 6, you guys are the one yo. Those are difficult hours to wake up for radio and it is usually never easy to do yet I've people that come through for my show, for the contributions on discussions, just to request a song or so, I appreciate the time taken especially now when radio seems to be dying and nobody really voluntarily listens to it anymore, thank you thank you for being a loyalist.
I don't know man, I don't know if I  can finish thanking all of you,, the Levels loyalists, the people that rock The brand I Co-Own with two of my friends Cheni-Molo and John, to everybody that always gives us the juice so we go forward setting not only trends but ideas and and an indoctrination of bigger ideals, a movement to change mind shifts, thank you to all of you to..
Thanks to everybody that supported anything Immanuel, Scar The Philosopher Tomas was associated to, for the love, the constrictive criticism for everything, you gave me breathe, you were the fuel that ran this engine.
may we always have a complimentary well wishing relationship.
I just felt like writing an appreciation post on the blog man, I have so many unposted pieces and when the time comes, it will be Christmas for you that time of the year when it comes.
You're awesome and never forget your worth, you are real value and no one should tell you less.
fight for your dreams and just be true to yourself,never forget your story where you came from the rest of life will take care of itself.

Immanuel Tomas
The Philosopher.

Impossible...

I sold you a platter of language and action dipped in dreams of love and paradise.
You sold me hope of a tomorrow that was marinated in mornings and sunshine's ending in our hands intertwined...
We tried lasting but time stood against us.
Fate had cursed us
and destiny had broken the vows of our married minds...

The force of the universe has no will for our coupled life.

If it was not meant to be,

Maybe that is the way it was meant to be.

A bite from a forbidden fruit...

I'm just me man..

He who whispers sweet nothing's in your girls ear and gets away with it.
He who has a story so twisted even villains never want to hear it before bed time
I see the world in colours way beyond the visual frequency of the human eye.
I can be poison..
A tumor that grows in your mind

attaches itself to your thinking and carves your persona from all the pain and hurt you've ever experienced, to
Make the most perfect you, you can imagine.
I am the undertaker..
He who prepares you for a new life..
Washes and cleanses you of all impurity
Soaks your soul in a fountain of hope and unwraps you of all your despair..
Turns you to diamonds for people to see...
And allows you to be the best of you you can be.

I am him.
The repetition of a mistake you have long failed to correct
The perfect example of a hit and run prospect
Plausible potential yet untamed
A man for your taking yet unclaimed.. 

I am Scar.

Not Yet...

We aren't yet dead
Life's ever lasting winter keeps us active in our hibernation
Seeking love in dreams and hope in sleeps rest
We aren't dead yet.
Not while I feel a beating heart in my chest
not while my blood continuously circulates around my body
I am not dead yet
The Big Premiere is yet to come
I'm not dead yet...

A December story.

I turned around and at a place where once was no one, you were there
Black clothes blue hair bright smile
And in my drunken state I told myself, oh yes I like your style
I watched you move to the beat,
Left and right as you displaced your feet
You were a sight to admire
The one that all these thirsty men desired
But me I didn’t thirst for you,
Believe me you I tell you it’s true
I longed only to know you
Deeper than rap
More complex than rocket science
I only wanted your compliance

To know your name..
Understand your game
In that there was no shame
Because my intentions were sincere
Not only for that night, that is why I am still here

Time was dear to me
It brought you close to me
It let me hold you for that little eternity
As I felt you sway to and fro
You fit in my arms as if you were perfectly meant for me
That night dancing gave connection a new meaning you see
Because  I felt different
I felt isolated.
From the world we were distant

But that was just for that night,
Correct me if I am wrong and tell me what’s right
Does our once become a memory only?
Do I hold on to hope that maybe one day?
Something can still come to be
Because I miss the moments we never had but could’ve.

I miss not holding you and telling you, you are special
I miss not texting you early in the morning
I miss your presence in my app
I miss all that we could be but are not

So Dear Rosy
Do not be afraid,
For somethings are better not concealed but said
I hoped by now I would know you
But there are still things about you of which I have no clue
Its true time has not been good to us
But know that I still remember
Maybe for a short infinity
But that is good enough to be a forever
A lifetime in a life
A beautiful uninfected memory
A girl I met that made an impact
Treasure to the ultimate quest
A warlord’s conquest
FAIREST OF THE FAIREST
Any man’s best

Dear Rosy...
I question my ability to miss you
But sadly the truth is that I do
May the future drive you closer to my sight
May your dark days always be conquered by light
May you until Gods will stay well
May you make memories to make stories
So future generations you can tell
May life be good to you and may you ever excel

Dear Rosy
I hope you are good

After a year....

You came as smooth as lies from licked lips
You swayed your way into my eyes with those hips..
I read your mind through those updates you posted
And I hoped to get to know you beyond 
these boundaries created.
Eventually I  approached you and damn I was baffled.
I met your mind with these eyes., saw your beauty and  
Through those networks I approached Your physique and mind I came to see.

I envisioned a future for you and me
I hope for only the best that we should be.
For little but precious time I got you attention.
I spoke to your soul I touched your spirit and captivated your mind.
We had conversations that time lost.
Little memories that filled big gaps and created paradise.
But long before I could realise
That in my falling I was losing you...

This heart was deeply entrenched in the idea of a love was true.
It was felt with the rays of the burning sun... with the taste a morning rise and that lethargy under the stars before the escapade to dreamy lands.

Because of that I didn't come across rectifying my mistakes.
You  identified them because you knew what was at stake.
A heart pure for God's liking... and righteous for the devils will to attempt  a taking.
I failed to fix my pride.
I still wasn't considerate..
Maybe a portion of my heart still held hate.

Like broken guitar strings.
Like war in war torn countries.
Your heart failed to commit.
You failed to buy the dream for a reality of a man that was broken before your entrance.
You didn't heal this fractured heart...
You that smells of angels, walks like gold and speaks with the accent of diamonds. .
With all that purity...
All that power to change...
You just gave up...

You locked your heart like the first time I met you.
Sealed the depths of your mind so I could not go through
And as paradise came in the blink of an eye.
You made your exit.
With wounded emotions torn in conflicts of staying or leaving...
But eventually taking the walk that increased the proximity between you and me.

I was left here with the invisible touch of memories made.
I could smell the scent of past beautiful moments created.
But that was now only a room in a castle empty for its queen has left.
The only woman that ever had hold of this mature heart.
You left with the morning breeze and absconded with shooting starts...
You Chose a Scarless path and
Lived up to the oath in those bars...

But until today
This man still loves you.
He acknowledges mistakes,  he accepts fault.
And as you tell him you can't change him
He recites in his mind that real love can change for sustenance.
You discard the old and start clothed in a demeanour of novel decent.
You choose to have hope in the future and discard all negativity from the recent.
Work to create the perfect relation because easy comes as does it go.
That is why struggles should make or define situations and not end them.

I told you I was a burning fire and you still came at personal risk is what you think..
You're worth it and deserving is what I think.
Inspite of all your heeding and warning to stay at arms length, I just couldn't.

Even long after I told you I was done with you.
Not a day went by in which I did not think of you.
Not a day went by in which nothing more than you're presence could please me
I longed for days in which I made you laugh.
Days in which I didn't have to be careful with what to say in fear of your wraths retribution.
Days where the existence of us was in its livings prime...

Oh Well!

Someday I hope I can fill your perfection cup.
I pray time turns you my way again.
I wish I had one more try at chance.
I plead that we will one day advance.

But for now...
As requested.

I shall live in hope of finding your  apparent suggestion of a compatible suitor.
Once more I'll try to live without your presence and hope only to eventually embrace your absence.
May I not become a let's just become friends that isn't your friend anymore.
May time grant me acceptance and that eventual new guys tolerance...

Thank you