The presence of patience for the youth.

In the past 2 years or so there are people I know to an extent that have been incarcerated for possible committed offenses while they are still  very young. 

Most involve money or were as a consequence of wrong associations. I’ve realized that in our youth we come to engage with different social classes and consequently people that are often older than us as young people. 

It’s a fact that youth are in that room but there’s a difference in the societal standing however that is  the circle you are  in as a young person. 

You see a lot in these times,  you see wealth, materialistic things, a life you could live or sometimes being way better off as opposed to your current standing.

This brings ideas in a young person’s mind to do something to elevate you to the societal paradigm of what you associate yourself with or the circle you keep a check on. 

You see you resolve to commit a crime because of the need to reach that stage, immediately for that matter.

What you don’t consider is this. You are young and it’s okay not to have it all or to have everything in order now.

Your twenties/youth are the times you use to build yourself into the room properly. There’s no need to rush into things and if you are at some point stuck you are still young enough to have your family look out for you, to go home and start over. 

To discuss a way forward into how to get yourself out of precarious situations. There’s no absolute reason to take a risk that will scar you for life.

Your youth is the time you have to build in, it is now that you have to make peace with not having it all but knowing the worth of what others have and being okay with working towards what you want CLEAN. 

But we take risks and end up in cells with criminal records for a long time/forever. 

To see people I grew up with as kids or have known since I was a kid be involved in crimes is sad especially where there is potential to be better. 

A quick fix will either be that or it will be the fix that breaks your life forever and society will never look at you the same way.

A conviction stays with you and bars you from many life opportunities while you haven’t even  reached the age of your prime.

I guess what I’m trying to say is at this point don’t let desperation or problems drive you to crime because if and when you are caught even that risk you took becomes pointless and ruins your life.

Allow your life to play out, if you laugh,you love, you’ve got family and you’re surviving now..: you are okay.

I’m saying this because you’ve reached the stage to discern as to what people have and what you have and you’re probably thinking of when your time will come or when you will get it.

Let time do it’s work but live on the right path, hustle, build and be content for greed and gluttony are deadly sins and they will bury you. We cannot have young people just going like that. 

There is more to you than a conviction;

There is more to you I say so please...

Stay out of crime and understand the growth process. 

Negative comparison is an omen so understand your journey and that not all are the same. 

Let it go and work on you please.

Go make your dreams come true yourself.

Real Talk.

Please share this with your family and friends ey. It's long but worth it.

To every young one that just started grade 12 or 10 today. People are failing and the numbers only seem to be increasing year by year. Don't start a new year with new uniform and worry about how shiny your shoes look or how short your skirt looks or how nice your blazer looks. These are material things bought by your elders with money most likely hard earned you see.

You go to school and instead of giving your all to your books you give your all to your friends, to your cliques and to the social evils that hold many people down. Some of you know you have great potential yet you ruin yourself with indulging into things that are not relevant; you fool around in class, you ignore doing homework you dodge classes, you become reluctant to take opportunities such as Higher level because of other peoples negative opinions yet these people are not you.

You fail to priorities and plan, you fail to set yourself a vision which is the same as planning to fail. The streets will embrace you nice, nice. You will become the talk of your hood, the shame in your family the laughing stock of your peers.

I don't know you personally but if you have reached this stage I know you care for who you want to be some day. Give your final year a little time ey, tell yourself you will become someone and work towards the achievements of those goals.

Let other people's experience be what teaches you, do not always have to fail in order to  pass. Yes! it is possible but you have a chance now and if you are blessed with opportunity, use it and go forward

Use your family, your aspirations, your dreams, your ambitions to be your inspiration and become someone. Break the chain of failure and be added to this years passing class percentage. Look at those who have gone before you and let their results be your fuel ey.

You are in school for many reasons but remember it is for yourself first and ey this does not mean the end of your social life, just set yourself straight divide the time and all will be okay.

Good luck for this academic year ey.
Go make your dreams come true.

#The_Philosopoher

The Conflicts of My heart and Mind.

I tried to understand the world and the choices we make.
I tried to put into line my thoughts that are too scattered for freedom.
Thoughts stolen by the gap in a reality of a father I never had.
A mother who went too soon to feel the wrath of  an only sons full achievement.
Thoughts stolen by a heart that knows not how to fully be bound without two like others for them .
Parents.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen.
They were stolen by the girl that i first fell inlove with .
The one I wrote love  letters and met behind the classroom to hold hands and feel pure for.
The one that first taught me that love is a myth and hearts are for breaking and feeling
but some of us live out of this world when we're in it hence it's real.
The one that took off the eye cap of that beautiful lie and showed  me the ugly truth .
That people are selfish and your investment in their emotion is useless lest they too have invested equitably.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen.
They were stolen by knowledge I didn't really have and a love to learn but sometimes curiosity often killed the cat.
I learned that drugs exist and they can take you away.
Blank out everything and bring about the best peace mountain for yout monk mind.
Meditation and Patience.
I also learned that it took you.
It took your weight your thoughts your schedule your lifestyle. 

Also the colour of your lips .

And left you with nothing but scorn from the outside world.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen.
They were stolen by the call of the nightlife , the tune of the sound and the will to move. The drowning of sorrows in the noise and the sight of ridiculous joy.
The glitz and the glamour, the chills and the thrives.
I was taken.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen
They were stolen by these network,
Your Facebook my snapchat, her insragram, and his Twitter.
They were stolen when I was proclaimed a keyboard warrior and formed part of the elite that sucked us further from humanity.
Placed is deep into our phones and plunged us deeper into the pit of emptimindedness.
I lost my table manners and came to forget that these things exist to bring us closer to one anothero but the bowl of isolation seems to melt into the depth of further solitude for each of us.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen...
They were stolen for I am human and temptation was sold to me in worldy things and I bought it.
I paraded it in my existence and it tied to me as if it was created for me.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen.
They were stolen by the quest for peace in my heart and the hope of a better tomorrow. 
The desire to be complete and  cries to be free.

I tried to understand the world but my thoughts were stolen
They were stolen by a reality that everything around was not meant to be understood and life was meant to make you stand under the veil of your own comprehensions protection.
I wanted to understand but my thoughts were stolen.

They were stolen by you, by the world , they were stolen because I had no safe.

So please tell me
how could I be safe.

When I could not understand.

Worthy!

You are a fighter.
You walk with the shadows but carry the light deep within you. 
You're a pure form of art, something like x  or pi...
The mathematics equation.
We just don't know.
Not everybody will understand you... but don't let that stop you.
Allow your light to spark the mind that changes the world.
Be the change you wish to see and live forever.
You are
Greatness
Forget that not.

Social media activations.

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Side Note.

I've been writing stories with my life.
Been on a moonshine mission.
Doing the most here and there and surviving elsewhere.
I hope this place is your peace.
I hope in this realm you don't lose your voice.

Happiness.

If you are one that make other people's happiness a priority that supersedes your own.
Stop, re-evaluate the situation and see if the satisfaction garnered from there eases you. More often than not many shall admit we do things for other people's happiness.
The reasons are endless here...
[ insert yours here]

Personal satisfaction becomes a child in the eye of making sure x and y are happy.  Everything  you do will desire the acknowledgment of another only then at times will you feel the satisfaction . You become dependant on the need to have someone around in order to do something that makes you happy. That honestly ruins you.

True happiness isn't depentent on anyone but you.
You have to dissociate from the requisite of individuals to influence your peace. Love yourself with the love  of a god for their subject.
Live yourself with desperation that drives the force to change.
Perform regular introspections as they keep you aligned with your objectives .
You'll learn to take well care of yourself in those circumstances.
"If you change,  you don't remain the same'.
If you don't change, you remain the same".

When they thought we didn't learn.

With hope filled hearts we made our way here.

We settled and made a home away from ours. 

Made friends, formed families and most of us never lost the vision.

We never lost the intelligence to reason so we couldn’t understand.

How! How we came and learned before we made the affiliations.

How we learned in our different capacities.

How you taught us that justice, and fairness are essential to decision making.

How you raised brows with your lectures of morality, dignity and integrity.

How you expanded our reasoning in calculating complexities so as to come to logical and probable conclusions.

How empathy and the best interest of the child was so much in your preaching yet you mock us now.

You attempt to

You tied us with your bandage of oppression

Apprehend us with your cuffs of silence.

Being Deep under the spell of corruption

You destroy the opportunity at life we have here today

You gobble the resources and

And burn the funds in your making merry.

By virtue of your regulations you cut out our tongues one by one.

You attempt to muffle the voices of our rebellion.

You stab the heart of our revolution

Dismantle the assembly of our association

But not today.

Not in a world where the pioneers of the moral standard have laid precedent.

When stories of the conquered liberation where told to us in the evolution of our generation.

When you have read us the book of rights and told us to live by those principles.

We refuse to be mentally incarcerated in prisons to fill your illicit fueled advancement

 Even if you place the condition of infinity on the duration of your plight.

We shall not bow.

In protest and advocacy we’ll fight for our peace.

We’ll be the thorn in your foot.

The disturbance to your tranquil.

For we belong to the free world.

We are the children of struggles.

Guardians of the woke lands.

The bud of seeds planted in rough and dry soil.

The light at the end of the tunnel has long been shown to us.

We’ve been told The Eden of our struggles has promised our welcome.

So be informed…

The reach of the effort in our quest

Is if need be

Until kingdom come.

Psalm African Child/ An African Childs memoir.

Today we take a walk in a land of time long gone yet so has much impact.

To a day when we lost many in life but gained in struggle.

When choice was not ours and force was their voice.

When pain screamed in its silence and life was lost in violence

When being black was a curse and being educated often worse.

That is the time I wish to take you to.

When choice and rights where are a  myth

And your voice could be your death.

When tyranny sat on the throne and segregation was the mission.

When one race flourished while the other withered in its thriving.

We swallowed the pieces of a conspired education.

That, that is the time I wish to take you to.

When we lived for a purpose straight out of destiny’s box.

When we had our fill of this omens cough

We cured ourselves of the abomination

And contributed to the plight of the rebirth of a nation

 We broke the chains of the mental slavery

And succeeded here today for an education that is optimal as needed to be.

We prevailed though with the count of men down.

The past has left us only with this.!
what is to come. And here, and now!

So may their deaths have meaning and bring out the best in you

So as to prove their struggle was genuine and true.

Happy African Child day.

The return?

Hey guys,

 I haven't written a lot  recently.
My time has been vested in my other endeavors,  {the books and gigs and radio presenting and blah blah blah.....) but  I've kept up with reading to some extent yeah.
So I can say that many things have been going on around me and it makes my mind boil in anticipation to put thoughts on paper but yeah, writers will get the drill mostly i think.
I've felt my presence here has been absent and it's time I kinda get back to this a little more consistently apart from captions on social networks yes? cool. So this is what is going to follow.
I am going to post two pieces I wrote very recently.
 Like one from Thursday and one I just wrote this morning.
The First one after this is a dedication to the commemoration of African child day, it's about how we as
as the youth in our era's have always have fought to prevail colonialism in all faces.
The second ones was inspired by the cumulative events that have sparked a lot of controversy recently between academic administrators including not excluding the other branches of educational institutions against students yeah.I pray you take a little time after you finish reading em, that's if your still feeling my flow after this yeah.
Indulge and provide feedback where you can.
It always feels good to know that what one writes can spark discourse that will lead to solutions on many issues.
Thank YOU again for being here.
Happy reading.

Blogmaster
The Philosopher

More Life.

Sometimes we create situations  for ourselves with consequences way out of the reach of our inner natural order.
Things homes teaching never brought our minds to.
We fall for wrong people; we make the wrong friends, we make shitty  life decisions, we act out and then we become destitute...

We adopt alien deamenours and paint them in new age titles..
. "Hook up culture, liberals.. free mindness... you name it"
Traits that were at times not passed down to us by those who came before us.
Evolution has advanced so deep that change requires change in definition.

The Apple of every new generation seems to be falling further from the tree with every new coming future.
In philosophy,ethics, morals, lifestyles etc...
We do all these nasty, embarrassing and humiliating things.

But AYYY!
That is the beauty of existence.
True existence that brings with it a package of memories made, and the ability to learn.
To learn from past experiences and be able to act according to the  intellectualism of your growth.
In knowing the hope that despite not all is  perfect NOW, tomorrow will be a better day and  therein you know lies happiness.
Find your happiness and inner piece.
Accept the things you cannot change and change the things you won't accept.
Difference requires effort.
It's not really the external vibe that should matter, but it's how you feel inside and how you can learn to remedy and mend your broken self from all the pain and hurt of past experience.

It isn't easy so don't be so hard on yourself . Applaud yourself when you need to, treat yourself, pat yourself on the back and always have a contingency plan..
Learn independence.
You are your most important investment.
Know your worth and remind yourself that gold and diamonds shine and that should always be reflected by the radiance of your joy.
Live. Thrive. Prosper..

More life to you and yours.

Dear Becoming Educated

To any scholar out there, especially the grade 10's and 12's of the Land of the Brave. People are failing and the numbers only seem to be increasing year by year. Don't start a new year with new uniform and worry about how shiny your shoes look or how short your skirt looks or how nice your blazer looks. These are material things bought by your elders with money most likely hard earned you see.

You go to school and instead of giving your all to your books you give your all to your friends, to your cliques and to the social evils that hold many people down. Some of you know you have great potential yet you ruin yourself with indulging into things that are not relevant, you fool around in class, you ignore doing homework you dodge classes you become reluctant to take opportunities such as Higher level because of other peoples negative opinions yet these people are not you.

You fail to priorities and plan, you fail to set yourself a vision which is the same as planning to fail. The streets will embrace you nice, nice. You will become the talk of your hood, the shame in your family the laughing stock of your peers.

I don't know you personally but if you have reached this stage i know you care for who you want to be some day, just give your final year a little time ey, tell yourself you will become someone and work towards the achievements of those goals.

Let other people's experience be what teaches you, do not always have to fail inorder to pass. Yes! it is possible but you have a chance now and if you are blessed with opportunity, use it and go forward

Use your family, your aspirations, your dreams, your ambitions to be your inspiration and become someone. Break the chain of failure and be added to this years passing class percentage. Look at those who have gone before you and let their results be your fuel ey.

You are in school for many reasons but remember it is for yourself first and ey this does not mean the end of your social life, just set yourself straight divide the time and all will be okay.

Good luck for this academic year ey.
Go make your dreams come true

In a little perspective.

One day left, one day left for a very informative and life lesson filled year.😃

I wish i could get to line up every individual i met this year and shake their hand and give them a hug or something and just say, thank you for being a part of my 2016 ey🙂😎.

I've made some pretty strong and good friendships and associations that only continue to build me in some way or another, people that don't forget to remind me of how I started and people that also tell me to keep chasing the dreams I have, never to give up and always to keep a straight head, i can't mention names here but the feeling will hit you when you read this, you will know if it's you.🙌🙏

2016

I lost the love of my life this year man, i lost my biggest inspiration, I lost my Mom too man, my Queen.I felt I lost my life, the ones that f\have lost a mother will know how deep that pain is man. But yeah, God will never give you a struggle too hard for you to overcome, he knows your strength and with that in mind, know that it will never be the same but it will be okay someday

.

I've had so many adventures in the course of Radio presenting, Mc'ing (Tah! big ups to all the people that always turned up the vibes with me), Debating ;as a student as a free mind, as a young person this year. I still din't find that girl, guess that's a work in progress ey, been single a couple of years and still am, you know how things happen and they don';t happen, kinda where this love life thing has taken it's course with me. It falls as well as it grows yo. but i appreciate and will forever those people that i kinda had or have a little deeper than average bond this year, had some pretty lit sessions yo, inserts chuckle.👦😅😜

And to every one I met only once or something✌🏽, I might not remember you, like when we meet again like some people I've been meeting this December but ey my love goes out to you and it's probably just coz we dint still on a deep or proper fam, that aint nothing big to get on about yo👍🏽.

2k16 Law school, that was some other tip legit, but we pulled through that fight clean, 2 more years to go and then it's a happy dance. Endeavor to make yourself an educated individual if you are lucky enough to have the opportunity ey. Good things come from being an academic;a scholar and your credibility still grows, do what you like and how you like it, don't make it bad competition though👐🏽, before it is anything else it is your own journey so no need to feel you have to compare yourself to anyone else, this year I learned to "love yours". Things hopefully will become better, just persist in your hustles.👌🏽

As for the social networking world, thanks, I've come to meet several interesting minds here, woke people with a consciousness that is too lit, thanks for being the therapist😆😂 that i can't afford and the light to some of the ways, these socials play a very important role in creating your own personality and moral and social compass, you learn wa\hat to abstain and indulge in😏

peaking🙂 of indulgence 2016 for me was a year of 0% alcohol consumption, got rid of it so if you ever saw me lit, that way probably Mary. but yeah fall in and we fall out of things, we do as we shall for we know ourselves

thank you, and thank you for staying around for my own very poor version of a bible,

May next year be as it will. we wait and see what it has in store for us and speak little of it.

Adios and happy New years in advance to you if i don't see you tomorrow.

Who do you thank?

IF I HAVE NOT BEEN EVER BEEN THANKFUL, THEN I WOULD BE AS INCONSIDERATE AND AS SELFISH AS THE WORST COME..
2016 for me has been one hell of a ride, if we knew the extent of times and place with deep pain and hurt, this would surely have sufficed as time in hell hey.
As bad as it was though, I had my good times, My moments in happiness and a sense of growth unto me.
My passions grew, we left no interesting stone in our path unturned viable to our circumstances.
I achieved and learned from most if not all experiences.
I explored sides to me and as I met more people, I got to see diverse personalities to individuals and that honed my interpersonal skills on a hundred.
I gained experience, good and bad, but since it's the good we are remenisicng on I would like to acknowledge, everyone that has been there for me.
Always ever standing by me no matter what.
My family, the people that raised me, the ones that never threw me away like so many children in the world out there every day, the ones that made sure I stayed healthy, I stayed productive and gave me the platter on which I built my moral compass.  My friends, the ones that remain untouched by external influences and never forget to help me and my path, people loyal to dust and never in expectancy of nothing more than the average mind know they deserve in proportion of effort as well.  My Business associates that have become more like family as we have a strong understanding of what we have envisioned for tomorrow,   the dreams spoken and plans made that root us to deeper paradigms, My fans, I don't particularly like this term as it sets one on a high horse and gives you a whip of so much obligation and responsibility alas, to the people that always follow my stories, always support my shows, read my writings from everywhere in the world, I've seen views from Holland, South Africa, Kenya, Ghana, Nigeria, France, UK, USA, and Russia to mention a few but in over 15 countries for me is a hella achievement and I am happy my work reaches a greater audience. To the ones that always remind me of how beautiful what we put in black and white can be thank you for understanding that beauty is a spectrum and we choose our own color in the rainbow. To the ones that follow me on radio, the ones that always wake up early with me for my show every morning from 6, you guys are the one yo. Those are difficult hours to wake up for radio and it is usually never easy to do yet I've people that come through for my show, for the contributions on discussions, just to request a song or so, I appreciate the time taken especially now when radio seems to be dying and nobody really voluntarily listens to it anymore, thank you thank you for being a loyalist.
I don't know man, I don't know if I  can finish thanking all of you,, the Levels loyalists, the people that rock The brand I Co-Own with two of my friends Cheni-Molo and John, to everybody that always gives us the juice so we go forward setting not only trends but ideas and and an indoctrination of bigger ideals, a movement to change mind shifts, thank you to all of you to..
Thanks to everybody that supported anything Immanuel, Scar The Philosopher Tomas was associated to, for the love, the constrictive criticism for everything, you gave me breathe, you were the fuel that ran this engine.
may we always have a complimentary well wishing relationship.
I just felt like writing an appreciation post on the blog man, I have so many unposted pieces and when the time comes, it will be Christmas for you that time of the year when it comes.
You're awesome and never forget your worth, you are real value and no one should tell you less.
fight for your dreams and just be true to yourself,never forget your story where you came from the rest of life will take care of itself.

Immanuel Tomas
The Philosopher.

Impossible...

I sold you a platter of language and action dipped in dreams of love and paradise.
You sold me hope of a tomorrow that was marinated in mornings and sunshine's ending in our hands intertwined...
We tried lasting but time stood against us.
Fate had cursed us
and destiny had broken the vows of our married minds...

The force of the universe has no will for our coupled life.

If it was not meant to be,

Maybe that is the way it was meant to be.

A bite from a forbidden fruit...

I'm just me man..

He who whispers sweet nothing's in your girls ear and gets away with it.
He who has a story so twisted even villains never want to hear it before bed time
I see the world in colours way beyond the visual frequency of the human eye.
I can be poison..
A tumor that grows in your mind

attaches itself to your thinking and carves your persona from all the pain and hurt you've ever experienced, to
Make the most perfect you, you can imagine.
I am the undertaker..
He who prepares you for a new life..
Washes and cleanses you of all impurity
Soaks your soul in a fountain of hope and unwraps you of all your despair..
Turns you to diamonds for people to see...
And allows you to be the best of you you can be.

I am him.
The repetition of a mistake you have long failed to correct
The perfect example of a hit and run prospect
Plausible potential yet untamed
A man for your taking yet unclaimed.. 

I am Scar.

Not Yet...

We aren't yet dead
Life's ever lasting winter keeps us active in our hibernation
Seeking love in dreams and hope in sleeps rest
We aren't dead yet.
Not while I feel a beating heart in my chest
not while my blood continuously circulates around my body
I am not dead yet
The Big Premiere is yet to come
I'm not dead yet...

A December story.

I turned around and at a place where once was no one, you were there
Black clothes blue hair bright smile
And in my drunken state I told myself, oh yes I like your style
I watched you move to the beat,
Left and right as you displaced your feet
You were a sight to admire
The one that all these thirsty men desired
But me I didn’t thirst for you,
Believe me you I tell you it’s true
I longed only to know you
Deeper than rap
More complex than rocket science
I only wanted your compliance

To know your name..
Understand your game
In that there was no shame
Because my intentions were sincere
Not only for that night, that is why I am still here

Time was dear to me
It brought you close to me
It let me hold you for that little eternity
As I felt you sway to and fro
You fit in my arms as if you were perfectly meant for me
That night dancing gave connection a new meaning you see
Because  I felt different
I felt isolated.
From the world we were distant

But that was just for that night,
Correct me if I am wrong and tell me what’s right
Does our once become a memory only?
Do I hold on to hope that maybe one day?
Something can still come to be
Because I miss the moments we never had but could’ve.

I miss not holding you and telling you, you are special
I miss not texting you early in the morning
I miss your presence in my app
I miss all that we could be but are not

So Dear Rosy
Do not be afraid,
For somethings are better not concealed but said
I hoped by now I would know you
But there are still things about you of which I have no clue
Its true time has not been good to us
But know that I still remember
Maybe for a short infinity
But that is good enough to be a forever
A lifetime in a life
A beautiful uninfected memory
A girl I met that made an impact
Treasure to the ultimate quest
A warlord’s conquest
FAIREST OF THE FAIREST
Any man’s best

Dear Rosy...
I question my ability to miss you
But sadly the truth is that I do
May the future drive you closer to my sight
May your dark days always be conquered by light
May you until Gods will stay well
May you make memories to make stories
So future generations you can tell
May life be good to you and may you ever excel

Dear Rosy
I hope you are good

After a year....

You came as smooth as lies from licked lips
You swayed your way into my eyes with those hips..
I read your mind through those updates you posted
And I hoped to get to know you beyond 
these boundaries created.
Eventually I  approached you and damn I was baffled.
I met your mind with these eyes., saw your beauty and  
Through those networks I approached Your physique and mind I came to see.

I envisioned a future for you and me
I hope for only the best that we should be.
For little but precious time I got you attention.
I spoke to your soul I touched your spirit and captivated your mind.
We had conversations that time lost.
Little memories that filled big gaps and created paradise.
But long before I could realise
That in my falling I was losing you...

This heart was deeply entrenched in the idea of a love was true.
It was felt with the rays of the burning sun... with the taste a morning rise and that lethargy under the stars before the escapade to dreamy lands.

Because of that I didn't come across rectifying my mistakes.
You  identified them because you knew what was at stake.
A heart pure for God's liking... and righteous for the devils will to attempt  a taking.
I failed to fix my pride.
I still wasn't considerate..
Maybe a portion of my heart still held hate.

Like broken guitar strings.
Like war in war torn countries.
Your heart failed to commit.
You failed to buy the dream for a reality of a man that was broken before your entrance.
You didn't heal this fractured heart...
You that smells of angels, walks like gold and speaks with the accent of diamonds. .
With all that purity...
All that power to change...
You just gave up...

You locked your heart like the first time I met you.
Sealed the depths of your mind so I could not go through
And as paradise came in the blink of an eye.
You made your exit.
With wounded emotions torn in conflicts of staying or leaving...
But eventually taking the walk that increased the proximity between you and me.

I was left here with the invisible touch of memories made.
I could smell the scent of past beautiful moments created.
But that was now only a room in a castle empty for its queen has left.
The only woman that ever had hold of this mature heart.
You left with the morning breeze and absconded with shooting starts...
You Chose a Scarless path and
Lived up to the oath in those bars...

But until today
This man still loves you.
He acknowledges mistakes,  he accepts fault.
And as you tell him you can't change him
He recites in his mind that real love can change for sustenance.
You discard the old and start clothed in a demeanour of novel decent.
You choose to have hope in the future and discard all negativity from the recent.
Work to create the perfect relation because easy comes as does it go.
That is why struggles should make or define situations and not end them.

I told you I was a burning fire and you still came at personal risk is what you think..
You're worth it and deserving is what I think.
Inspite of all your heeding and warning to stay at arms length, I just couldn't.

Even long after I told you I was done with you.
Not a day went by in which I did not think of you.
Not a day went by in which nothing more than you're presence could please me
I longed for days in which I made you laugh.
Days in which I didn't have to be careful with what to say in fear of your wraths retribution.
Days where the existence of us was in its livings prime...

Oh Well!

Someday I hope I can fill your perfection cup.
I pray time turns you my way again.
I wish I had one more try at chance.
I plead that we will one day advance.

But for now...
As requested.

I shall live in hope of finding your  apparent suggestion of a compatible suitor.
Once more I'll try to live without your presence and hope only to eventually embrace your absence.
May I not become a let's just become friends that isn't your friend anymore.
May time grant me acceptance and that eventual new guys tolerance...

Thank you

Matters of the heart,Status Qou Analysis!.

Finding the right person these days is harder than finding a needle in a haystack.
People are so cemented in past heart breaks and bad relationship experiences that gaining  their chance for an opportunity is hard now. Everybody wants something real this is true,  but how many people actually want to risk it all again!? Nobody wants to jump into something good without being assured it's real and nobody wants to assure someone that something is really real anymore because they fear their real emotions might be the cause of their humiliation, people fear rejection (myself too).

Everybody wants to be accepted and wanted by the people they want but because of what history has written for different people it makes it hard to start on a clean slate because we are all vulnerable.
We want to tell people so badly we want to hold them, , kiss them, love them but the unfortunate reality is that some of these things will never be known by who they're meant for because these sentiments and desires are so deeply hidden  and camafloudegd by the protection of personal interests that many would rather not say.
When do we again like in the past learn to convey true emotions and find people that vibrate on our frequencies,  when again do we feel love or emotions as if it was the first time when will it be strong enough to try for?

Will this come in time and it's heavy dragging feet, will it come with the wind and it's ever sad melody, will this rise with the sun and it's burning intensity?  When will we love with no fear and finally be content without paranoia that we belong to someone and we have someone that belongs to us? When will we live without stalking our better halves for signs of soft or light infedelity on their social networks?, When will we have a love as old as history itself, when will we have a love stronger than the power of an infatuated imagination? Will we get it by holding on to who we have now, do we have to break away from who we were, from who we are with and start afresh?

So many questions I know, but I'm just wondering if the type of love that will be existent without scrutinty from third parties and even in the event that there are third parties,  I am wondering if the opinions of those parties will ever stop being of consequence. Will we ever not be influenced by the speeches and opinions of people that know nothing about us but know about us?

I believe we all deserve a person but this should be mutually exclusive to the desires  of both stakeholders in that relationship. I believe we all have the right to a person that makes us happy but for that to exist we must survive the obstacles presented to us by mordern theories that will make finding a soul mate harder such as hookup culture and Co . Once we root ourselves to the true believe that hope is a phenomenon that can help us get anything we want, maybe then will we finally be ready to pair and start something real, or else as the majority is now, either live with someone hoping for the right person to come by, be alone and wait for a time you think is right or painstakingly sculpture your present into the future you want with whoever you are with now for a better tomorrow.

Hope love and live.

Give back the real meaning to these words or live to die trying in that accord.

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It's just a thought, a really long thought